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^ Interesting. How do you try to control your emotional self?

Because I've always tried to rationalize my inner conflicts away. Recently my therapist told me that's not going to work.

I try to as well, but your therapist is likely right. I often try to work on something or watch something/listen to something a really enjoy. Sometimes I try to find catharsis, and sometimes I just try to let go.


But I'm a VERY emotional guy and I get weepy over all kinds of goofy things, I think I'm better served for it, but in a world where a lot of people play games it can be tough. I guess there's something to be said about trying to find balance in your life, and really I've been working hard on being content with being alone, because right now I know I'm not emotionally ready for another relationship. Miss the cuddlin' tho.


Lauri, I guess I don't know how to properly answer your question, since you are a different dude on a different path, I know a lot of my own struggles are self-created and I have to deal with them accordingly.

To everyone else, I'm sorry, I hate airing my dirty laundry like this, but sometimes when you're in a funk, expressing in some way can be helpful.


Today it has, I'm feeling it less in my gut and more in my head now, which is good.

^ Interesting. How do you try to control your emotional self?

Because I've always tried to rationalize my inner conflicts away. Recently my therapist told me that's not going to work.

I try to as well, but your therapist is likely right. I often try to work on something or watch something/listen to something a really enjoy. Sometimes I try to find catharsis, and sometimes I just try to let go.


But I'm a VERY emotional guy and I get weepy over all kinds of goofy things, I think I'm better served for it, but in a world where a lot of people play games it can be tough. I guess there's something to be said about trying to find balance in your life, and really I've been working hard on being content with being alone, because right now I know I'm not emotionally ready for another relationship. Miss the cuddlin' tho.


Lauri, I guess I don't know how to properly answer your question, since you are a different dude on a different path, I know a lot of my own struggles are self-created and I have to deal with them accordingly.

To everyone else, I'm sorry, I hate airing my dirty laundry like this, but sometimes when you're in a funk, expressing in some way can be helpful.


Today it has, I'm feeling it less in my gut and more in my head now, which is good.

I think it is always good to express yourself.

Youre right about us not being the same dude. Ofcourse I can't generalize stuff that my therapist tells me on others. Something about what you said just sounded like my situation so I just figured that you might be doing the rationalizing-thing or that I could learn something from you.

I wish you more head and less guts.

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I started getting ready for work, made some tea, and feel a lot lot better.


And yes, more head is always better than more gut

EDIT FROM MUCH LATER:

Dinner with my best friend nomming on some delicious Burmese food helps put the universe in perspective.

Can't sleep.
I will eat clown.

I started getting ready for work, made some tea, and feel a lot lot better.


And yes, more head is always better than more gut

EDIT FROM MUCH LATER:

Dinner with my best friend nomming on some delicious Burmese food helps put the universe in perspective.

Food always helps put things in perspective,

^ and really I've been working hard on being content with being alone

My plight since I came out of the closet 13 years ago. Welcome, mate.

Country/western vocals are ridiculous.

i have sweet home alabama playing in my head.

sir david attenborough was just talking about overpopulation.

my legs are cold.

my legs are cold.

Stop wearing skirts in Finland. Or move to Florida it's almost always warm here XD

Depressed.





That's about it really.

Depressed.





That's about it really.

Damn.


That sucks.

Depressed does suck.

But not bothering to try and fight it off is even suckier. Thats my mindset nowadays anyway. I've started to find some sort of "self respect" in a way, which leaves me disapointed with myself if I let myself stay pinned down by it. Its Bullcrap 'n' I aint lettin' maself lose to it!

Sometimes its hard, of course. But there is too much to be missed if you live your life feeling down, n all that.

And obviously, there is always depression related disorder / bipolar etc. that some may suffer from, making it all the more difficult - but you don't see The Dev letting it get the better of him (significantly) nowadays - so you shouldn't too! (A 'you' as in 'general people', not YOU specifically - I'm probably making no sense / not relating one bit. You probably do fight it off as much as possible for all I know...)

Either way, stay strong y'all.

Depressed.





That's about it really.

Are you still not getting any sleep?

Depressed.





That's about it really.

Are you still not getting any sleep?

Getting more, but not enough.
Trying to distract myself during my waking hours, also trying not to eat too much. Every time I see a doughnut these days it's a battle of will power; sometimes won, sometimes lost. Funny I suppose.
Oh well, it's a storm that will pass in the end.

big day tomorrow