Thanks guys. Just preparing for the drive to Indiana tomorrow. Originally planned for Monday, but the rest of my family is impatient and making us rush now.

Gosh, I'm so sorry to hear that. Losing a grandparent is hard, really hard, especially when you've had them in your life til adulthood, they mean so much and only want the best for their grandkids. God. I know exactly how you feel man. Best regards to you and yours, and feel better man.

Well, he's been in and out of my life for years. Seeing that he lived over a thousand miles away, it wasn't all the time that I got to see him. Luckily got to see him back in July when we went to Indiana for vacation. Amazing how quickly things can go downhill.

Thank you. I'm most worried about my dad. So much is going on with him and his health. Now he has to deal with the loss of his own father.

Is it hereditary? If it is, are you at risk?

High blood pressure and cholesterol run in the family(Dad's side, Italian/Croatian). I'm trying to force myself into healthier eating habits...slowly...Plus working a very physical job helps.

I hope your drive there goes better than the time you wanted to see Dillinger.

High blood pressure and cholesterol run in the family(Dad's side, Italian/Croatian). I'm trying to force myself into healthier eating habits...slowly...Plus working a very physical job helps.

That's way too familiar. Condolences and keep an eye on your blood pressure, inheriting this crap is pretty common unfortunately.

This damned small, hick town. I miss diversity. I miss having options. I miss music stores, clothing stores, electronics stores, and having an actual mall.

For 35 years I live in Santa Cruz, CA, where everything I could possibly want was in easy driving distance of where I lived, but I rarely had to drive very far at all. The weather was great, the people were fantastic and diverse, and music was everywhere. Here, in NW Colorado, we have shit. The move was necessary, but I definitely left part of my soul back in Cali. There is a huge void within me. My family feels the same. I wish we could go back, but it is still just too damned expensive, and the job market has never been all that great.

God, I hope I don't die out here. What a horrible place to breath one's last breath. Winter is coming, too. Heavy snow and sub-zero temps. Yay.

Ok, I'm done whining. Carry on.

[Octillus]

For 35 years I live in Santa Cruz, CA, where everything I could possibly want was in easy driving distance of where I lived, but I rarely had to drive very far at all. The weather was great, the people were fantastic and diverse, and music was everywhere.

I'm sorry about your troubles, but as a former Santa Cruzer myself, I wanted to say hello.

I definitely feel your pain about the job situation back on the central coast, there's really nowhere for a person with my degree to find work unless I do wedding videos, but it's always going to be home.

I'm sorry about your troubles, but as a former Santa Cruzer myself, I wanted to say hello.

I definitely feel your pain about the job situation back on the central coast, there's really nowhere for a person with my degree to find work unless I do wedding videos, but it's always going to be home.

Yup. I am determined to make it back eventually. Maybe not Santa Cruz, but as close as possible. Just need to win that lottery...

What's unawesome, is when you think you're a much closer friend to someone than you really are.

So fucking disappointed.

Life goes on I suppose.

[Octillus]

What's unawesome, is when you think you're a much closer friend to someone than you really are.

So fucking disappointed.

Life goes on I suppose.

This one happens to me a lot, in fact I was dealing with it just last week. Life does go on, and I'm all about emphasizing quality over quantity in situations like that, but it doesn't take the sting away.

The human being seems to be inherently selfish, and let's be honest we all have a sense of self which naturally will take priority over the whims of others, but it's no excuse to be a dick.

Be well, Amber.

What's unawesome, is when you think you're a much closer friend to someone than you really are.

So fucking disappointed.

Life goes on I suppose.

This one happens to me a lot, in fact I was dealing with it just last week. Life does go on, and I'm all about emphasizing quality over quantity in situations like that, but it doesn't take the sting away.

The human being seems to be inherently selfish, and let's be honest we all have a sense of self which naturally will take priority over the whims of others, but it's no excuse to be a dick.

Be well, Amber.

Yeah, you hit the nail on the head. I'm sure I'll get over it soon enough. It's just one disappointment too far, so it's the whole "Why the fuck do I bother?" stage.

But I'll get over it.

Thank you.

Fucking fuckfacefuck insomnia!

My brain is melting.

ANd I am constantly on COfffeeee

8 )

Fucking fuckfacefuck insomnia!

My brain is melting.

ANd I am constantly on COfffeeee

8 )

Fuck.

My back hurts, gonna pop a pill.

Fucking fuckfacefuck insomnia!

...

ANd I am constantly on COfffeeee

you don't suspect any causality there?

Fucking fuckfacefuck insomnia!

...

ANd I am constantly on COfffeeee

you don't suspect any causality there?

No.

Okay.

Well, you know my remedy for insomnia, don't you?

[swervedriver]

Okay.

Well, you know my remedy for insomnia, don't you?

Your remedy for everything wrong in the world.