I got offered tickets to see DTP basically every remaining night of the current tour and my leg is swollen it won't fit into my leg brace so I need to decline.
I was remembering, of all things, the coffee machine at my grandparents' house and how much I enjoyed using it when it struck me that I would never visit that house ever again. I don't know what's going to happen to it but chances are the land will be sold either to a neighboring farm or winery. The house itself, which has been around for over 100 years, may end up being demolished for all I know.
It's bad enough I wasn't able to attend my grandfather's funeral (and properly say goodbye) but the fact I have lost any opportunities to return to a place which holds so many memories and played an integral part in my life leaves me deeply dismayed. I've tried to keep the reality of this at the back of my mind as I know there's nothing I can do to change it, but it's also made me realize what I've taken for granted both then and now. It's easy to know these things and yet silently dismiss them to focus on others, even if you're not exactly aware that you're doing so.