
you know I luvs ya...
Some of it, I guess...
Honestly, I don't know...I've got 2 or 3 industrial type songs somewhere...will they make the cut? Too early to tell.
I'm just chilling before I have to tour. If I get on a roll, I'll go with it. But I haven't been to the studio in a week or so. No desire right now. I've got a ton of crazy songs, 2 or 3 heavy songs, some weird ambient heavy songs, some trippy outer space freaky techno thing (or 2) and a bunch of dreary acoustic songs.
I've got the beginning and the end of it. But the problem is: Deconstruction illustrates a conclusion I came to a year and a half a go. The record is old hat now. So technically, at this point, I'm doing it for the audience. I'm trying to justify THAT as an artistic motivation within the realms of the dtp, but my desire to chill is winning over that every time currently.
I tried to justify it being a brutal detox after Addicted is made known, as in: Once you realize your addiction, what do you do about it?
...but again, the end of deconstruction... the 'kicker' ...like the end of Ziltoid, I already know. So it's just filling in the blanks for the sake of folks following it. I'll do it, for sure, but it just seems like a colossal headache right now. You know, we humans tend to think that we can solve everything by going incredibly far into our own game, but I'll tell you ...the furthest I've gone, either meditation, drugs or trauma seems to lead me to a place WAY PAST the heavy and the chaos, to a place that there is nothing. A void filled with potential.
'Lust and hate need fuel, and in the void, there is none, so eventually it extinguishes itself'. So I guess sometimes that irony seems a little hilarious... (thank you thank you, why yes, I am pretty freakin' smart, how bout a head rub?)
Oh well, sure...I'll make it industrial, why not?
